Tuesday, May 23, 2017

Tabenings - Why Are You Like This Edition

Another post saved by habit! I think "it's late, I want to watch last night's Daily Show and Late Night with Colbert and then hit the hay... oh, but it's Tuesday and I should post something. Eh, nothing much to say... can I just do it tomorrow?"

And the answer is no! Doing it tomorrow means that it won't get done!

So here I am.

Topic, topic... ah here's one!

As you have doubtless observed from the last few weeks, I snarf for porn on a regular basis. Generally I come back with between a few and a bunch of yummy finds - I'm like a dragon, man, lying on a hoard of mind control / lesbian / hot nekkid women pictures - but nothing that really flicks its finger between my legs. The sort of thing where I have to exert effort NOT to get off, as compared to working myself up to orgasm.

But then there's the infrequent instance that I bump upon something that just smacks its hand on my buttons, for reasons I mostly understand but still mystify me as to why they have such erotic power over me.

I encountered one of those this week!


It's just four pictures - actually, one picture with minor edits and dialogue changes to make a sequence - but, WHAM.

I understand to a first approximation why I like it:
  • Raven. Oh, is she hot to me. That grey skin, that attitude, I just, rrr. Rr.
  • Human cow fetishism. If you've read 'Herd Instinct', you know I swing that way. I love big tits (though I love small ones as well) and I love the whole 'domesticated animal' angle.
  • Scary intellection reduction. This is where it gets skeevy - and also so, so hot. I can't explain it, rationally it is ridiculous and frightening yet my libido is whistling and stomping its feet and waving its handkerchief.
  • Enthusiastic participation. Also intellectually a total baffler - yet one of my most powerful hot buttons. She wants this? WTF? And Oh God Yes.
As I say, if I try to understand why those last two points are so hot to me, I can't. Volunteering to have your brain shriveled up, leaving you a placid cow - no one would ever do it and it's really pretty horrifying. And yet DANG do I find it a turn-on. Ach, so helpless against how hot it is.

This is probably part of the reason I keep my mind control fantasies firmly behind the computer screen, where I can enjoy them without having to worry about how they get along with anything in real life. When folks ask me if I've tried hypnotism or do any sexy role-playing, the answer is "absolutely not" - because the kind of stuff I like just doesn't translate well to real people. And I don't want it to.

Luckily, I also don't need it to. When it comes time for morally questionable fetish smut, Raven is there for me, letting my imagination dance hand in hand with my libido down the slippery road to orgasm-town, with no requirement whatsoever that I take into consideration anything that might muddy up the picture.




8 comments:

  1. Herd Instinct was one of the first stories of yours I read.

    Is there a reason why you do not write more cowgirl, pregnancy or lactation themed stories? It seemed like it would make sense it many of your stories such as Pierced.

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  2. I think I would find that sequence better if her expressions were more on-point in terms of vacancy and doe-eyed dimness. As it is, what's really doing most of the work are the background details listing her brain functions, etc. The figure work and expressions are pretty much secondary by contrast.

    I'm also confused by her willing participation, it comes out of nowhere. A tiny hint that she's been tricked or tranced into being so eager would have helped.

    Maybe I'll do a CGI sequence of the same scene for fun and practice :D

    On your checklist of four points - I'm fairly sure the third one is compelling to those people who fulfil most of a specific list of criteria. Those criteria include absent father figure, very high intelligence, savvy enough to be able to talk their way out of problems and manipulate others, comfortable lifestyle, demanding job, high levels of responsibility and expectation, etc. All those things add up to a desire for loss of responsibility; which in turn makes fetishes such as IQ reduction, pet transformation, vore, unbirthing etc all desireable.

    In addition, the vast majority of people I know with the more extreme brainlessness fetish have attested to experiencing a "crisis of mortality" very early in life, like around age 5-9. This premature and keen realisation of the finite nature of existence brings about a form of Stockholm syndrome where the person develops a coping mechanism via embracing the concept of death as a fetish, which becomes the desire for mental nothingness and total loss of agency.

    In my limited experience, there's a 1-to-1 correlation between people who harbour this fetish, and those who suffer from brief but extremely intense panic attacks when dwelling on their own mortality (like, a feeling strong enough to elicit a physical reaction such as crying out or thumping something on the rare occasion that they re-grasp what mortality means).

    So yeah, that's my random armchair opinion on the third point :)

    (DM)

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  3. I'll post a "fifth image" over on the Collective's gallery, to see if you're paying attention to the comments section here :D

    (DM)

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    1. Oh, I eagerly devour all comments! I'm just crap at responding to them.

      Thanks! I don't know whether I'm more impressed by the image or your turnaround time. :)

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    2. Tee hee, it was just fun to try matching all the details in the original pics.

      Would have completed it faster if it wasn't for needing to write out the status text, turn it into a texture and then apply it to the monitor screen prop :D

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  4. Yeah, I get it. I have the same "why am I like this?" reaction sometimes. :3 For me, I think it boils down to ... sex changes people. We all have erotic personalities, and there's always a sense that gettin' freaky takes you beyond or beneath your everyday self.

    At the "vanilla end" of what I like, there's basically that. Disinhibition, growing enthusiasm, any hesitation or regrets being swamped out. The more extreme stuff, the dehumanization and permanent loss-of-self, is just an extension of that primal interest into fetishistic territory.

    In between are things like "daddy" play, bimbo fantasies, etc. How does a horny, fetish-y feminist feel about implants? Well, ... they're gross if they're a kind of dispirited, commodified surrender to body-mutilating conformity... and god they're super-hot if they're someone radically modifying their body for sex because their pussy demanded it. So, like, ??!??! xD

    Sometimes it can spook me out. Stories that I get off to 90% of the time, maybe 10% of the time the horrific aspect throws cold water on instead and I take a break.

    As always, a huge fan of yours, Tab. You're a fantastic writer; in addition to eagerly awaiting any new smut, if you ever decide to crank out a "straight" SF/horror novel or collection of stories, I have my wallet out and ready. ;)

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  5. I think the cow thing is a classic case of taboo=hawt for me. I think I prefer the girl to stay smart though, smart girl but too horny not to moo works best for me. On the Archive, Friendly Advice by Eye of Serpent, Malcode by Arclight, and Silver Eclipse (which has all kinds of other good stuff too) by Madam Kistulot would be my standouts. Also like Cowherd by CNP.

    -Vanderbilt

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  6. the tag "bovinization" made me think of this:

    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wmGCqL0-wwE

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