Hello, readers.
Well, it's been fifteen months since I've posted here; and about six since I've checked my email. A lot of smut creators simply disappear after a while. That's the nature of the business. But I care about a number of you and thought you deserved an explanation.
I'm going through a divorce.
It has nothing to do with this. But it's hard. It's really, really hard. I don't want it to happen, I didn't see it coming, and it hurts every day, all the time. It's fear and depression and loss and loneliness. It hurts. It just hurts so much. I walk through each day like a zombie, hoping the pain will stop for a little while. The only thing I look forward to is sleep.
I'll come out of it. I know I will. Things will get better. I have friends, I'm seeing a therapist, and all the research I do tells me that it will get better.
But it's really hard right now.
As far as relevance here, I'd say the odds of my returning to smut writing are about 66%. (I'm not sure who exactly I'll be when I'm on the other side of this.) If I still enjoy it, then I'll be back.
Anyway. I hope you are all well. I won't be around for a while longer. My best wishes to you, whoever you are and whatever you're doing.
- Tabico
Best wishes and take care of yourself.
ReplyDeleteI am so very sorry you're going through this. Stay strong, and I believe it will eventually get better.
ReplyDeleteBest wishes, I hope you are able to get through it soon and be in a better place mentally.
ReplyDeleteI know it'll turn out ok. We're all more resilient than we give ourselves credit for. Best wishes and even if you don't return to the kink, I hope you stay in touch.
ReplyDeleteVery sorry to hear it. You have lots of fans out there who will celebrate your return should you decide to continue writing in the future. Take care!
ReplyDeleteI am sorry to hear your going through rough times. While its sad to hear you may stop writing, you've already created great stories I keep going back to. Take care of yourself and best wishes.
ReplyDeleteThis is sad news indeed. I gathered something significant had transpired and while I am glad you are not physically harmed, I feel for the pain you are going through. I can't speak for anyone else but I know I have turned to your prose as an escape when I have had difficult moments in my life. Find what makes you tick in this new chapter and I have no doubt success will follow you. Thank you for the update, be well.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry you're going through this. If it makes any difference, I'm glad to know you're still around, even if you're not ok right now. I wish you the very best.
ReplyDeleteReally sorry you're having to endure this. The artistry in your stories has given a lot of happiness and even comfort to a lot of people, and I hope you feel at least some of that reflected back to you now. Wishing only good things for you, wherever your journey takes you.
ReplyDeleteSorry to hear you're going through a tough time in your life. Best of luck and I hope things improve soon.
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