Well, it's been fifteen months since I've posted here; and about six since I've checked my email. A lot of smut creators simply disappear after a while. That's the nature of the business. But I care about a number of you and thought you deserved an explanation.
I'm going through a divorce.
It has nothing to do with this. But it's hard. It's really, really hard. I don't want it to happen, I didn't see it coming, and it hurts every day, all the time. It's fear and depression and loss and loneliness. It hurts. It just hurts so much. I walk through each day like a zombie, hoping the pain will stop for a little while. The only thing I look forward to is sleep.
I'll come out of it. I know I will. Things will get better. I have friends, I'm seeing a therapist, and all the research I do tells me that it will get better.
But it's really hard right now.
As far as relevance here, I'd say the odds of my returning to smut writing are about 66%. (I'm not sure who exactly I'll be when I'm on the other side of this.) If I still enjoy it, then I'll be back.
Anyway. I hope you are all well. I won't be around for a while longer. My best wishes to you, whoever you are and whatever you're doing.